Ringing in 2016

This time of year I start reflecting on the past and looking forward to the future.  There are good and bad times from the past, all which have made me the person I am today. As far as the future goes.......I guess we wont know, until we know.

I do know that I used to be feisty. Now people say I am just a B. *If they only knew* I do not let my mouth run away anymore, I am also kinder with my words and weigh them out before I say anything. *see that maturity!!!!* I also have resting bitch face and overly emotional face but at different times. The only thing that I am sure of myself is that I am probably F%$^king something up.  I dont have a perfect life nor do I even pretend that I do. Trying to keep up with appearances...or even with the Jones' would be too exhausting.

My big resolution this year is to be kinder to myself. To give credit to myself for my accomplishments and not be too critical of myself for my setbacks. Also, to get my butt to the gym. for real, there is no excuse, it is at the end of my street and both kids are gone to school by 815 in the morning. The third thing that is probably more important than the rest is to actually care for myself. My husband is home for a bit and we do have respite care but I need to use respite for more than a sitter so I can go to my appointments. I need respite from my house and my scheduled life. I need time to pick up a hobby to be my escape, to learn something, to be something that is reflective of me.

I hope that 2016 is kinder to me and our family than 2015 was.....well, we start today!